In Christ we have hope in the darkest of moments. Christa Black Gifford’s life was just starting to turn around thanks to her revitalized relationship with God, then tragedy struck.

“I was pregnant with my second daughter, we moved and three months later I gave birth to a beautiful little girl that didn’t have her skull on the top of her head.”

Two years later, Christa still speaks of the memory of her daughter with pain.

“So many times we try to get people out of their pain and grief. I don’t know how long it’s going to last, it’s been two years and I still cry about it.”

Christa’s daughter Goldie lived for 40 minutes.

“When she died it was so amazing, it was so strange because I was sitting in the middle of hell, of death, this thing that Jesus came to overcome, and yet internally, for the first time in my life I was connected to heaven. I was connected to the source of love. Something on the inside of me was greater than the hell crushing at me and I was not flattened, I was not destroyed like I had been so many times that life.”

Christa likens her experience to that of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in the fiery furnace of King Nebuchadnezzar’s palace.

“I learned what it was like to sit in the fiery furnace and think I’m not being burned. I’m not being destroyed this time, because I am staying connected to love in every moment of my grief.”

When we experience intense negative emotions like grief, it doesn’t mean we are no longer connected to God. He wants to meet us in our grief, and help us through it, if we will open our hearts and share our grief with him.

“I feel like I’ve discovered the secret of life because my external circumstances can’t dictate my internal peace anymore.”


Christa Black Gifford is a dynamic worldwide speaker, worship leader and bestselling songwriter. She is a popular blogger, writes for The Huffington Post, and was the keynote for Women of Faith’s Revolve Tour.

Key Scripture: Isaiah 61:1

Featured Songs: Song of My Father – Urban Rescue; Amazed – Lincoln Brewster; You Gave Your Life Away – Kathryn Scott

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